The past few days have been tough for my family. Throughout this crisis, many have prayed or promised to pray for the situation. I have found myself offering prayers that range from fiery passion to moments where I don’t know what to pray and sometimes I don’t even want to pray.
Here is what I know; prayer doesn’t begin and end with me. I have found great strength in knowing that the Spirit intercedes for me when I don’t know what the heck to say. I also know that written prayers of the saints are helpful to me. I love when people pray from their hearts, with no notes and as the Spirit leads. But I am becoming more aware of the richness gained from prayer books, creeds and other written prayers. I need a diversity of prayer in my life.
Speaking of written prayers, here is one from Thomas Merton that I am marinating in today.
My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore I will trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and will never leave me to face my perils alone. -Thomas Merton